Music and Mental Health

I love music... always have and always will. However, when my break up first happened, I couldn't stand listening to music. Every song I heard would make me feel worse. If it was a happy song, it was usually about love and it would make me feel rubbish because I wasn't in that relationship anymore and of course any sad song would make me cry. I couldn't even drive my car with any music on, I would drive in silence. As time went on, there was just no avoiding it. To be honest, looking back, I feel like I did the right thing by not listening to music otherwise I could have spiralled into a darker place because my emotions were so extreme anything would trigger me. However, when I got to a point where I could listen to music again, I discovered that listening to some of the lyrics made me realise that these songwriters have also felt how I felt and I could relate to a lot of the songs I was listening to. The more songs I listened to, the more I felt comfortable with my emotions and how I was feeling. It made me realise that I was not the only person in the world feeling the way I felt and that I wasn't alone. I made a load of new playlists, I had my sad playlist so when I was feeling really low and really into my emotions, I would just get in my car, go for a drive on my own and listen to my sad music and cry in a car park. That makes me sound really sad, but honestly, it helped. I would come home and I felt that little but of relief because I had just let out all these emotions. I had my angry playlist as well that I would listen to and scream at the top of my lungs. My favourite playlist I have at the minute is my 'bad bitch' playlist. I listen to that one on repeat lately while I'm driving. Theres a lot of feel good songs on there, a lot of 'fuck you' songs on there and honestly I feel so alive when I'm singing them, its just one banger after the other and I love it.